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My confidence, it wavers a lot these days. My ability to take cold hard rejection is a little shaky too.

Friends would be a really great beginning.

I hope I'm not just dreaming.

It would suck to wake up and realize he's never felt anything for me. Ever.

I'm stupid. I should have figured out that I had these feelings a long time ago.

I can just see it now....
Twenty years from now I will still be pining for him because I'm too chicken shit to put myself out there. I don't care for having my heart ripped out of my chest by anyone. Especially him.

Rejection freaks me out.

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2008-05-02 - 10:09 a.m.
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hi. I'm just the thirtys something lady next door to the man I want to love for the rest of my life. I've loved him from the first time I laid my eyes on him. Now comes the hard part. Getting the object of my affections to notice that I even exist. Yup, that's me.
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